Feeling A Little Old Today

Do you ever feel old? Older than you are, I mean.

My Sweet Baby Girl turned 3 on Monday. Three! She is sooo not a baby anymore. She bosses around her older brothers, manipulates like crazy (or attempts to anyhow. I do remember how the game is played, it wasn't that long ago), frequently requests her nails be painted and her lip gloss be touched up(I know, I've created a monster)! She's not really that bad, but if I paint my nails or re-apply my lip gloss in front of her, I'll have to share. Which really is fine by me. It's nice to have someone to share girly time with.

Before BG (baby girl) was born I was starting to think I might go crazy with all the blue sports paraphernalia that began collecting throughout the house. I always wanted boys ( I grew up with two sisters, I've had enough drama to last me a lifetime) but after two, I was ready for some flowery pink stuff to start accumulating. I was having a harder time that I thought I would relating to the boys. Things just happened to work out perfectly. Our third and final baby was a girl!

Wow! Do I know how to off on a tangent or what?

So back to the feeling-older-than-I-really-am thing...

I guess having three kids at 26 makes me feel old sometimes(I know I'm not really old, at all). I have friends a few years older than me, no kids... sometimes life looks like so much fun for them. They have careers, travel, do whatever they want when they want. I was having babies while trying to get through college. Yes, I know, all of these babies are because of choices I made. I never really wanted to grow up to become a ...? Teacher? Nurse? Scientist? Astronaut? PB Bunny(hehe j/k, i figured while I was being rediculous...)? Anywho..., all I ever wanted to be was a momma. I think sometimes I just feel a little lost in all this laundry. I guess it's the whole 'grass is greener' thing. I really have everything I ever wanted.

In another 20 years my kids will be out of the house (they better be!), and I'll still be able to party. Woohoo! So I guess I'll be a little older, but feel a little younger. And I'll be able to reminisce(HAHA!) when visiting my friends who waited a little longer to start their families.

Now, back to that laundry.